Today marks two months that I decided to fully surrender. Today marks two months of freedom! This coming after three years of hard work and lot’s of love from my community, mostly the people at Mosaic Whittier.
I’d say that my soul is incredibly free. I’m developing a purity of heart that comes from walking with God and the growth of these last two months has been exponential. I’ve learned that despite circumstance I can have a hope that runs deep; I do not need anything as a “crutch” to get through – only my God.
Today I went to the dentist, again. It’s the 8th time in the past 6 weeks. I have a love/hate relationship with going to the dentist. Over the last 6 weeks, I have developed a special friendship with my dentist and his staff. With every appointment, our relationships only grow more. I look forward to that. Also, I look forward to learning about new technology, as my dentist also loves technology (he even let me try out his Google glass). The process of restoration involved in dentistry also fascinates me; restoring the teeth back to their original state is quite a process.
So is the process with our lives. Deciding to get healthy is just the beginning but it is that decision that we will go back to again and again. It defines everything yet is only the start. There is so much removal of decay that needs to happen. It will hurt. It might leave you feeling numb. Things may seem to get worse before they get better. You will need others to help you, to go in and do the fine handiwork that only can be seen from a different perspective.
Today going to the dentist hurt a lot. When I started this process, I never thought it would be as lengthy as it has been. However, doing a meticulous job – doing it right – is much more important than doing it fast. So, we’re taking our time; instead of wanting to be done, I’ve decided to savor this season: all of the relationships, learning, and soul-searching that it has given me.
